Wednesday, November 03, 2004

Post Election Depression

It's all over but the crying and man am I crying today. Well, not really crying but I am very disheartened about the results of the election. First off there is no question in my mind that Bush won fair and square. He captured both the popular and electoral votes. I am happy that our election was not dragged out weeks and months by the thousands of attorneys poised to pounce on district courts at the command of either candidate. The votes have been cast, counted, and the people have spoken. The last time I checked 3 million or so more of us thought President Bush deserved four more years. Not only that but the Republicans have gained seats in the Senate and House. So our democracy has worked with minimal muss and fuss. What is really bugging me is that I'm now wondering if I'm living in the right country? How could this be the result? How can the gloating conservative pundits be right? I suppose this will wear off. I suppose I'll be ready to sit in opposition to this administration's every move. This hasn't been the first time I've felt this way. Remember the Regan years? It's like some strange flashback. Then I was in fear of the world going up in smoke because this cold war cowboy was going to work the Russians into such a frenzy that they were going to end it all at the press of a big red button. Now I'm worried this pre-emption minded cowboy is going to continue to enrage the muslim world, swell the ranks of Al-Qaeda, and tee up the next big terror attack. Then my fear was somewhat irrational because, in-fact, cooler heads did prevail and the Russians basically were in such bad economic shape that they were collapsing under the weight of the arms race. But what about now? Are my fears irrational? Is Al-Qaeda on the verge of collapse? Are we safer today then we were four years ago? I'm having a real difficult time answering yes to any of these questions and I think there is significant evidence to the contrary. It's hard for me to admit this and I feel absolutely terrible about thinking this kind of thought but I hope the terrorists pick a "red" state to hit next. I don't think its an accident that New York, New Jersey, and Pennsylvania all went for Kerry. We really suffered from 9/11 and I think many of the people who voted in these states had 9/11 on their mind when they pulled the lever for Kerry. We were hit and I'm sure we feel it's coming again. We all saw Kerry brining a new more intelligent approach than the arrogant position taken by the neo-cons. And that is something we should never loose site of in the coming 4 years. Bush is the figure head. The real frightening result here is that the neo-cons have been vindicated. Their philosophy validated. They now have four more years to subvert the basic values of our country to suit their world view. That more than anything has me worried. I have kids. Will I see them die in the next terrorist attack? Will I never come home because I happen to be in NYC when the next attack comes? My neighbor's son is sixteen. Will I see him drafted to fight in Iraq or Iran? Will this administration be emboldened by this election result and not just continue but ratchet up their assault on my values? These are the things on my mind today. To put things in perspective this is probably how Republicans felt in the Clinton Era but I'm not sure we had so much to loose. I mean a little White House Hanky-Panky is hardly equivalent to this immoral war in Iraq. So tonight from Logan airport I'll head home. Tomorrow will be a new day, in a new country, in which I'll feel like a foreigner. What are you going to do about that Mr. President?


Blogger Elizabeth J. Neal said...

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